i want to share my thoughts again

why i'm on substack

Hello hellooo.

I kinda miss posting on instagram. I used to write more of my thoughts but after getting canceled I was like maaaan fuck it’s not worth it. The hate was completely dehumanizing. I questioned my own reality. I have strong values, and to be told I didn’t shattered me. 

Now, four years later, I’m wondering if maybe it is worth it, to share my thoughts again. I have strong values, I do everything I can to operate from them, and this is a virtual reality anyways so like who are you to say who I am hahah.

I don’t know about you, but there are monologues in my head, and I’ve realized that a lot of them aren’t my own, no, but they are words of discouragement I’ve heard from parents, politicians, teachers, friends, random people.

Fuck that.

I’m tired of not saying all the things I wanna say. Cause ya know what…what good is a “platform” if I don’t try to make the world a better place? I think making music makes the world a better place in and of itself, and I love how healing Destroy Boys has been to so many of you…seriously, warms my heart. 

But I want to take it further. I know that we can have a better world, and I want to see it change for the better in my lifetime. I definitely don’t know everything, but I don’t need to know everything about everything to know that the world is fucked and that certain things make it better and some things make it worse. And I think maybe if I shared some stuff, someone might get something out of it, and world could be a little better. Radical optimism?

I have thoughts on class consciousness, on the police, on cancel culture, on feminism, on my day, on the sunshine, on the ocean, on romance, on sex, on music, on friendship, on conflict resolution. I have questions, I have so many things swirling around in my mind! Gemini moon behavior lol

I would like to start posting on here more. As far as what to expect, I would say, expect nothing, hahah. But actually, expect stream of consciousness writing, expect more questions than answers, expect my slightly edited written thoughts, expect stories from me, expect musings on random shit. I fill a couple journals a year, so I imagine writing here will be kind of like that. But who knows! I’m open to whatever happens here. I’m inspired by Clementine Morrigan, by Janelle Monae, Jameela Jamil, and so many other badass people who share their creations with the world. I want to be more like them :-)

This feels like a year to practice listening to myself and appreciating my own voice. I want to inspire you all to be politically/socially active, to stand up for the things you believe in. And maybe I just need to confront my own fears and put things out there. If I’m brave, maybe you will be brave too.